As usual,I woke up with the greatest strength I have. Moving slowly to the washroom to meet Dr.Darlie. I was even more tired than usual. Maybe it was because I am not used to staying up late yet. However, I always believe human being have high ability of adaption.
It was two days ago that I felt so bored and restless. I wanted someone to talk to,to have fun with. My life is so damn it serious nowadays and I kinda not know what the hell is going on anymore. Its not like I like my high school life,but its the people whom I miss. I never know I have got such ability to MISS stuff,until today. This is way way over what I had experienced before.
Two nights before:
It was wednesday night, the day was so hectic. I had to stay in school till 4.30 pm. Note its 4.30 pm in school.
Reason: Because of the damn stupid koko day,so, our so-called clusters school have to lock us up in the damn school till this late. Did I mention how did they lock us up? Well,its actually nothing much except that they LOCKED THE DAMN GATE. Urghhhhh...
Just for the sake of joining and to get some points, my friends and I chose Ninjitsu club(btw, I dont even know the spelling of the club.It sounds right though). This club is so special. First day of meeting already AGM and I ve already got a post...how miracle.
That's not the worst part of the day. After I was freed from the 4.30 jail, I have to head straight to tuition till 7.00 pm. Miracles do happen again and again. I didn't fall asleep during tuition.. And that itself might be the biggest miracle of the year.
I went home all worn out,looking like an old hag..jeez.. After bathing and stuff, i sat in front of my working table staring at the ceiling. And I saw an imaginary angel. She was chubby and with fluffy wings. How cute and most of all, she was telling me to go to bed as I was so tired. How considerate.... But somewhere in my room,I sense a pair of eye staring at me. And that familiar pair of eyes if definitely someone whom I see everyday except weekends.
This pair of eyes belong to a man. He's intelligent and around 5" tall. He's a Chinese and has got a steady job and family. On top of all, he's my Maths T sir. Well, he's indeed very experienced and I too for now is grateful to have him as my Maths T teacher.
With a sudden kind of urge, I began taking out my maths' handouts,and thus the journey to hell begun. It was too boring that I went online a moment later. Logged in to my msn account without much expectation. Once again,surprises do happens. My two best-ies came to rescue the boring night of mine. We met in a chat room. Its been ages since the last time the three of us talk together. Its lame to say, but its what describe my feelings now.So, I think it is okay to be lame once a while right.... I MISS THE OLD TIMES WITH YOU GUYS!!!
Damn the TmNets that ruined the nice moment. The connection is obviously off the line. What the hell are those Tmnet ppl doing? Get your ass on work la jor.. Somehow, it was a great time...
And so, the school life of an ordinary girl in an ordinary school continues on lamely..
Friday,26Th of June 2009...
Sensed the presence of unwelcoming aura... Early in the morning, I was told by one of my classmate Effah that Michael Jackson died in his fifties. I am not a big fan of him but one of his song made a great memory for me; Billy Jean.... One of the Greatest Hits in My memory...
That was the first hit of the day. Coming up next was something rather strange. A new friend of mine, Ah Mo, was given scholarship to further her study at AIMST,Kedah. Of course I am happy for her, but at the same time I was shocked by it at the same time. My emotion was disturbed.
When my two best-ies and I go on separate each to fulfil our own dreams, this feeling didn't occur to me. At that time, I was deeply confused. At the end, I figured out that, I wasn't feeling sad or anything because, we all knew we'll keep in touch and ll always be there for one another no matter where we are and who we will be. There's trust and faith in this friendship that we built together. Irreplaceable....unforgettable.. and thus i hope it will be ever lasting.
This time was different. There's too much regrets with this new friend. I haven't got the chance to know her better. Too much regret... and that's something unforgivable.. I has got a feeling that we'll not keep in touch with one another. Somehow, this thought made me uneasy,unhappy.. And this is what life made of...regrets and hopes.. Regret that I've not taken up enough effort to appreciate this friend that fate brought to me.. Hopes that usher me to look forward another beautiful day with another different events of my life... hopes that made me believe in that this is not the end.. there'll be another miracle...
The third disaster of the day. Sudden spot check in school. Our whole class panicked. Why do they have to choose this particularly sad and emo and everything F***ED up time to spot check?Nervous. I need to act cool i need to act cool, that's what i was trying to convince myself. Everyone was scared I assume. There's student who admitted their crime because they were threaten by the prefects that if they don't admit at the spot, when it is found that they are of guilty, the penalty will be more serious. When I heard them saying that, I doubted for a moment on whether to admit my harmless crime or not. No, is the final answer. I have to bet my luck on this. Hoping that God will help me. I observed the prefects searching each student's bag. They were not strict and the movement was kinda slow compare to my former school. NGEK NGEK... However, my heart never feels steadier. It was thumping kinda faster than the average speed.
Ah Mo came to ask about my condition. She acted fast by putting her phone under the teacher's desk. The prefects will never suspect that place. Brilliant move. I told her that I hide my phone under the desk. Then, we were all waiting to see the final result. One of my friend, bee lee, confessed her crime. She is just to innocent. Tick tock tick tock........... It was ending.... RELIEVED!!! The prefects miss my place. They didn't even notice that they never check my bag. Phew! leganya...
Thankful... I felt so thankful to God and to everyone. I felt anxiety and happiness and joy. For a moment I was over the moon till reality strikes back. It hit me that the day will be the last day Ah Mo in school. The day was the last day Michael jackson is in the world. It all felt so sudden. Regrets.....
It didnt end here. As I was talking to a new friend, she suddenly told me a secret. A secret that I can never exposed it out to anyone. If I do so, I'll never be able to forgive myself and I'll live in guilt forever. However, it is so unbelievable and shocking. The day had begin with a shocking news and "surprises" just don't end.
Conflict. I had to stay back after school to prepare for the Lower 6 performance which will be held on the 1st of July, which is the coming Wednesday. our class, 6R Iskandar, will be performing a dance. After the practice, I'll have to go straight to chemistry tuition till 4.30. At first, I was supposed to join a new maths T tuition but because of some conflict, I wasn't able to get to there. At that time, I was so frustrated. Not that I like tuition very much, but it was just plain frustrating that everything went hair wire in a day.
TBC......
