tit's & bit's, funny n sad , mix & match

2012-02-18T04:02:00.003+08:00

Felt that there's so so so many things happened>.< hmmmmm~~~ can't really say its good or bad though....
but one thing for sure is my biological clock is upside down ald!!!
After 2 long long weeks, I'm finally back to my hometown...
feels really stuffy sometimes though..is it because I didn't go back home?or???
I still haven finish the 99 things to do in 3 months list=.=

2011-02-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

its time to proceed...

it ll never work out...as...there are too many things in between

2011-01-10T01:02:00.002+08:00

ok.....

1st,i started working on the 1st of january...is superb tired...1st day ald see different scenarios.. was wondering how the events ll eventually unfold..

wanted to write more bout my part time life..too tired==
so gotta stop for now..lol
its probably not even 50 words yet..lol

2011-01-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

how i wish life is all about doing things u like

simple n pure....

2010-12-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

it seems lately,everything's not going according my way...
getting more and more depressing day by day...
urgh......wheel of fortune?perhaps?

the hope to do list

2010-12-19T13:34:00.003+08:00

i wanna try~

ice skating

join bakery learning

learn how to brew coffee

learn art of chinese tea but too bad i missed the camp date....hmmmm

go to the beach with friends

wanna have a snow globe for Christmas with train n teddy inside

wanna join gym

wanna learn dancing if possible

wanna do the skytrek thing

wanna meet new ppl

wanna find out the plans for future

wanna keep in contact with f6 friends

hope to know how sweet n jo is doing regularly

wanna have full family gathering

wanna learn pottery but dunno where

wanna do volunteer work with the gals

more to come in mind

dunno which can be succeeded

2010-12-18T21:07:00.001+08:00

society,is it a scary thing?
or is it the people in it?
i dont understand

disastrous beginning of a holiday

2010-12-18T20:08:00.002+08:00

right when i need someone to be by my side,
non is there,
just when I'm too busy with academics,
many needs accompaniment,
when dark falls upon,
it is meant for to see light easier.........why is it not now?

2010-04-30T22:49:00.001+08:00

i'm happy when you texted me first coz den i know u're thinking of me even if there's some other factors=)

2010-03-21T19:52:00.001+08:00

Didn't know that i can actually find texting interesting and anticipating till now

2010-03-15T01:34:00.002+08:00

Am occupied with a busy schedule of all combinations....

went for a camp in k.pilah for 4 days....tiring

tomorrow ll be attending another 2 days camp at school....very tiring

been given 1 week school holidays.....exicited

full of extra classes and tuitions......boring

really wanna cut short hair like boys........am considering whether i should or should not....

2010-03-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

I am all about stress lately=( what am i gonna do??God,pls help me....

2010-01-24T23:31:00.001+08:00

am sick and is thinking of ditching school tomorrow...

2010-01-11T22:13:00.001+08:00

MEN, are always controlled by their lower part instead of their brain...reckless

2010-01-02T18:01:00.002+08:00

mask as a shield

and shield as a protection

to protect you from revealing and being vulnerable

from VAMPIRE to PONTIANAK

2009-12-29T14:41:00.002+08:00

I read the book twilight a year ago...there was these 3 lines that sounds roughly like this:

about 3 things i was absolutely positive about.

First,Edward was a vampire
Second,there was part of him,and i didn't know how potent that part might be,that thirsted for my blood
And third,i was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him...

The other I went to MPH bookstore and saw this malay version of TWILIGHT...the 3 lines above were translated into malay...it goes like this:

Ada 3 perkara yang saya pasti...

Pertama,Edward seorang PONTIANAK
Kedua,ada sebahagian daripada dirinya,dan saya tidak tahu betapa kuatnya bahagian itu,yang dahagakan darahku
ketiga, saya sungguh-sungguh mencintai dia...

I don't know why,but i felt the malay version damn funny....haven't get a chance to read the whole malay version novel of twilight though...i guess, it'll be damn funny when the whole thing is being translated into BM....hehe

its christmas eve

2009-12-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Christmas EVE with sweet,vincent,sanji and a few ppl which i dont really know... we just chat bout normal stuff..jo was suppose to join us too but last minute cancellation..i didnt blame her coz the reason was understandable...her sis had been discharged from hospital and is returning home tonight itself....and after i got home and online, jo terus say sorry... but i was not mad or anything with her...so its okay JO...u DO NOT NEED TO FEEL GUILTY..

CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT BRINGING IN NEW HOPES AND FORGIVING OLD FAULTS .thats what i feels about christmas la..

So, I hope I will be forgiven for the sin I 've committed ... I too will be forgiving anything...and see future with hopes...

MERRY CHRISTMAS(^.^)

3+1 orang yang gembira dan yang menggembirakan

2009-12-23T21:04:00.005+08:00

Today, I'm gonna write my blog in malay...

Video di atas telah menggambarkan 3 orang yang happi..

Pada 21 disember, sweet dan jo telah datang ke rumah aku setelah lama lama tidak berjumpa...hal ini adalah kerana,jadual 3 orang yang masing-masing sibuk.

Kita telah lepak di dalam bilik saya seluruh tengah hari.. Tiba-tiba

Jo bertanya: Jadi mana arang kita?

Sweet: tanya mei wee

aku: huh,bukan sweet beli ke?

Kesimpulan akhir, kena beli pada masa itu.. Jadi,kita pun tiga-tiga jalan ke kedai runcit untuk beli arang.

Pada pukul empat lebih, kita mula mencucuk ayam,hotdog,nugget dan ham untuk di barbeku.Selepas itu,kita teringat rumahku tiada madu. Sekali lagi, kena pergi beli dengan pak cik india kedai runcit itu yang tak bagi diskaun langsung.

6 petang, kita mula membuat api di luar rumah saya.Arang tu memang leceh..buat buat buat tak bakar pun..meletihkan tangan untuk kipas angin..pada 7 lebih,api dah siap sedia untuk dibarbeku...Dengan itu,mulalah barbeku kita yang menggembirakan..

Kita bakar dan makan dan bakar dan makan dengan gembiranya... sampai satu tahap kita kekenyangan.. pada masa itu,kita bercadang untuk ajak seorang kawan untuk bergembira juga di samping untuk menghabiskan makanan..orang itu jiran saya setahu saya walaupun saya tidak tahu rumah dia...

Aku jemput dia pukul 9 lebih,tapi Cinderella tu sampai pukul 12 pula...Selepas kedatangan Cinderella itu,kawan kawan aku dan aku telah dinama nama timangan haiwan...

Sweet---->khinzir

Jo----->katak

Cinderella---->itik

saya------>anjing

4 haiwan/manusia ini telah membuat keputusan untuk berbahasa dalam bahasa melayu dan bertanding tengok siapa lebih pro...hheheeheee...jawapannya tentulah saya...kita telah menikmati bintang yang sebenar dan bukan bintang "porn" si itik..

4 peribahasa telah dicipta:

A) genggam bara api,biarlah jadi arang

B)air yang tenang,jangan disangkka tiada buaya

C)anak yang disayang-sayangi

D)planet pluto dengan satu lagi planet pluto,apabila berlanggar antara satu sama lain,pasti akan meletup(ciptaan saya untuk menggambarkan dua orang yang sama perangai)

perbualan pun terus menerus hingga pukul 6.30 pagi apabila itik kena beredar dan pergi main bola sepak. babi,katak dan anjing berkemas,mandi...dan bermalas=malasan atas katil.. berbual-bual untuk sementara dan tertidur sampai pulul 10 lebih...kita bual atas katil dan makan tengah hari pukul 2...lepas tu bual lagi...lepas tu makan ice cream yang sangat bercoklat dan sedap...kita "cheers" dengan cawan ice cream...

Pada pukul 5-6,babi dan katak pun dah pulang ke kandang masing-masing...

Masa dengan babi dan katak memang gembira...

Anjing berharap,setiap kali pun boleh segembira ini apabila bersama ngan mereka...walaupun,kita tak boleh jumpa kerap,tetapi,mungkin inilah punca kegembiraan dan "bonding" yang baik=)

Jom buat parti baju tidur lain kali X)

2009-12-15T20:36:00.002+08:00

shall I avoid disappointment

or shall I hold onto hope

2009-12-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

shall I avoid disappointment

or shall I hold onto hope

=( i am not happy

2009-12-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

Holidays are:

food,food and more food.... sleep,sleep and sleep more....

Had been pushing myself to so revision everyday...at least something a day.....after all, its holiday...lets just have fun...revision can wait..

I was actually looking forward for tomorrow's event which is ice skating at sunway pyramid with f6 classmates...After so much of confirmation and delay, i thought for sure tomorrow is the day to be...however, i got stood up again...it was cancelled last minute...i can't believe this....i wish i never participated .... hence, i ll not be dissappointed...

Mom's got plan with her friend tomorrow since i told her earlier that i will be going out. Now,i am all left alone in home...

2009-11-30T18:38:00.001+08:00

Without words, you made me know love

Without words, you gave me your love

out of nowhere

2009-11-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

There are 2 types of people in life

One, are those creating their own stories in life

and the other, are those watching people's life stories throughout their lifetime

Which one of them are you????

If memories are to be created

They are as well to be remembered

2009-11-17T00:25:00.002+08:00

Bad hair day...

Men that act like a bunch of clowns...bad mannerism....

My patience has reached its limit....

Wasn't able to express it elsewhere other than here...

A brother who is a complete MORON!!!!

Tell me why aren't good things happen in the end of the year???

2009-11-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

would like to have some fun now....

2009-10-15T23:12:00.001+08:00

Am waiting for salvation

2009-10-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

Exhausted.. I just need a place to rest for a while

2009-09-25T14:38:00.001+08:00

I am now a soul being tormented by a demon called "fever"....

we are the champion^^

2009-09-21T19:12:00.003+08:00

Monday,september 21

5.20 am:

My alarm clock rings....indicates it is time to wake up and get ready for the day.And so i went to wash my face and everything,ate a char siew pao as breakfast,change clothes and got ready awaiting for my comrade of the day, Nicholas. It was about 6.20 when I got into his car.

6.20am:

I lead the way to miss J's house as Mr.N doesnt knows the way there. Reached there around 6.40. The road was dark. So,it took sometime to reach there. N ate his breakfast while waiting for J in the car. J got in as well and we made our way to fetch Miss. S... N decided to use the highway as it is faster.

Around 7am:

Picked up S and here we go people! To BUKIT KEPAYANG for hiking...

Imaginary impression:

I haven't been to that place before. I thought it was supposed to be decent,you know...decent as in there's roads for walking...

The reality:

Its steep and slippery,the road that we took.

The whole thing:

We met with a malay uncle there. He is very experienced and knows the ways to reach the temple. He even lead us the way. Well, to be exact, he tricked us. He needed accompaniment and tricked us into the jungle where the road was totally not the thing I've imagined. LOL... but it was fun. At first,it was all hectic and tiring. The "giving up" small talk was playing on my brain. However I shut it down. I didn't go there to be a loser, I am a champion....hehe

So,we struggled all the way there. S and N managed to do it quite easily. S had been there many times and N,due to all those training at ALAM, I guess, these kinda thing just don't bother him. J and me feels hectic but in the end we managed to get to the top.

The view there totally worth all those sweat and near fall experiences. It was beautiful with fresh air and friendly people. This place sure deserve a second chance or even the third or fourth or..........

After that, we went back to the parking place and went for breakfast at Foodtiam. The food wasnt nice=( We spent like hours chatting there as we are al exhausted. N sent us home. Thank you so so so sooooo much N.

oh,and before forget, I managed to catch insect at the bukit there too=)With N's help,i managed to get a grasshopper...yay..and nt forgetting S that had been searching all along the way up and down there...Thx so much guys!!

below is a historical video of the day^^

2009-09-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

Worst ever movie outing I had ever been!!!

weekend...perhaps,a healthy those of fear??

2009-09-07T01:12:00.004+08:00

This week wasn't a pleasant weekend. Frustrated and annoyance are two words to describe it.

Been thinking about popcorns and a healthy dose of fear? will try to get it sometime. Gonna try letting out everything that had been surpressing in me.

2009-09-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

How can you dump me for another girl? Jahanam betul...and you call yourself a BROTHER??

2009-09-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

dead boring

Which is which?

2009-09-05T11:26:00.002+08:00

Is there no any other options other than final destination??

Hmm,tomorrow might go for movie with classmates. But I am never a big fan of horror movies like that. In doubt now.....jeez... I prefer Orphan dei....

the lembu issue

2009-09-03T21:58:00.002+08:00

There was this discussion about what non-human causing factors that caused traffic jam in Malaysia in a class. And so, the class started.

The first question asked by the teacher.

Teacher: Apakah kenderaan yang memberi tekanan kepada jalan raya dan menyebebkan kesesakan lalu lintas?

Feed back from the students:

Student A: Lori
Student B: Jentera besar
Student C: kereta persendirian

Student P: Kereta lembu,cikgu.

The class laughed.

Teacher: Apasal pula kereta lembu?

Student P: Kereta lembu kan lambat cikgu? Sebab dia lambatlah yang menyebabkan kesesakan lalu lintas.

Teacher: Kat mana pula kamu jumpa kereta lembu ni?

Student P: Ada cikgu. Masa cuti tu nampak banyak kereta lembu lah.

The lessons continued with further discussion regarding the traffic jam topic....

Teacher: okay class, sekarang setiap orang beri satu sebab.

Response from students.

Student A: Jalan raya yang sempit.
Student B:Jalan raya yang tidak terancang.
Student C:Sistem jalan raya yang tidak sistematik.....and so on.....the discussion continues...

Student P: Lembu cikgu. Kerana semasa lembu-lembu tu melintas jalan, semua kereta kena berhenti..tak kira jentera ke,lori ke,kereta BMW mahupun kereta tempatan. Sesaklah jalan tu.
The answer was according to the question. The traffic jam was not caused by human but animal. Don't you think so?
Student Q: Pemandu yang bodoh la. Tak tahu pandu.

The next lesson. This time it is about economic background of the country.

Students were required to present their notes in front.

Student Q: Kemerosotan ekonomi berlakuu antara tahun 1997 hingga 1998 oleh kerana keruntuhan ekonomi globalisasi.

Student A: Apa yang menyebabkan keruntuhan ekonomi itu?

Student Q: Kerana lembu. Amerika Syarikat ada banyak lembu. Pada tahun itu, tiba-tiba jer ada penyakit lembu gila. Semua lembu sakit dan tidak dapat dieksport ke negara lain. Jadi, keruntuhan ekonomi berlakulah.

Student S : Tertinggal lagi satu point la. Salah satu lembu tu sudah berhijrah ke kelas ni!(Referring to student P,who started the LEMBU issue)

Students giggled.

Plainly posted it for fun.

prince syndrome

2009-09-02T21:19:00.002+08:00

1 week passes by so fast that it was like a blink of the eyes. And so, my holiday ended...sad

1st day of school was boring. I didn't have the mood or force to study at all. Whats with all those new timetable and again a new chemistry teacher which is a newbie. I am not saying that she is no good, its just that I prefer Miss.Rose. She is kind and funny and beautiful...will try to post a picture with her soon.

ARGHHH.. the insect catching and preserving experiment finally strike my class. I SO DON'T WANNA DO IT!!!!I would rather preserve a real mummy than insects. Seriously, this insect thing,really hit right on my weakness. I HATE TO ADMIT IT but it is true. Am I ever gonna be able to get over it?? Oh, for the love of God, please, will You please let me go through this as easy as possible?? please please please please pleassssssseeeeeee.......

I have just found out today that an idiot in my class is suffering from "prince's syndrome." Yes and yup, I am talking about you Phoon! You are so in love with yourself...haha

Heard that one of my friend in school is gonna stop f6. Had a mixed feeling when I found out bout it? Well, of course I'll feel sad la right?? but at the same time I'm glad also because it might be a better route for her?? hmm,lets wait and see what's the outcome then??

Oh,yea...almost forgotten. At tuition today, I finally realised that sometimes Mah's scary & cool look is actually of good use in times needed. Like today, he was helping another friend Ah yong to 'chop' a place because last week those so annoying Paulians sat on other ppl's territory and Yong had to seat at other ppl's place as there were no other options. When, the Paulian came, Mah's expression was as scary & cool as ever. haha, it made the Paulian scared I guess?? haha... So,mission accomplished! salute you, Mah

2009-08-29T21:08:00.005+08:00

With love to Dad who is always supportive and caring... MUACKZ

Grateful that it is a success..its spongy...haha..

For Dad:

Just a simple pandan flavoured chiffon cake.

2009-08-26T23:42:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA....

It finally ends!!! I'm sooooo happy... Can't believe things will be so great today... its plain happiness...

Went tuition today. That place is the third floor of the building. Eveytime i reach up there, it takes me couple of minutes before i can catch my breath and speak again.

Oh, and never forgetting bout bumping into Angel Phoon and Johnson. Never expected to meet them early of the day though.

Met up with 1991 Chung today. As good as forever. It was nice.

Awaiting for tomorrow. Its gonna be fun. It has to be fun.

2009-08-25T19:49:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just really hope there is a HE there... just sometimes..

This is also only because of some recent stupid incidents.

Firstly, there's an idiot who just don't understand that you are not available for him at all.

And did all those FUCK stuff that is really FUCKING FUCK IDIOT!!!

And then, that's the beginning of my peaceful and happy and lovey dovey God blessed life just got invaded by some stupid idiot fucking intruder.

There are another time when I really hope there is a HE there..

I know you are trying to help but sometimes you just need to LISTEN to others OPINION and NOT ASSUME that what YOU think is the BEST!!

Oh yea, I would like to praise MSN for having such good facilities to be able to delete contact entirely..

Why the hell does this holiday starts off with a bad beginning...

p/s: I am absolutely in a piss off mood now. Humour me or get ur ass off me.

2009-08-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

As if one shit is not enough...here comes the second...why do things turn out to be so shit!

URGHHHHHHHH!!!I JUST WANNA ENJOY MY HOLIDAY!!!CAN'T I JUST HAVE THAT??ITS NOT EVEN GREEDY..

2009-08-22T20:03:00.022+08:00

Mr.Lim Jit Jam..my Maths T sir.. he is teaching us how to stand under a table!!!lol

The TRIO DEVILS!!!Angel Phoon,Johnson...the one without head=Deman Lau

Left:Yong Sian(state badminton player) dancing teammate...the one beside is ME!!!! We were preparing for the Lower 6 performance on the 1st of July...

Head of Iskandarian..born Indon..Malaysian citizen... Effah but we like to call her RINA~~

My 1st georgian friend...and also seating partner...Liyu Ding(TURTLE~~)

right: demon lau gasping for air??? left: small foot Yong....

bee lee.. the smallest creature in the class...

Johnson.. the chef.. he cooks meal to school even for his gf also...causing rain by his singing is his talent...

Right: M.Sugan( so many Sugan in our class) left:Kalpana....diligent iskandarian

on the right, Yamuna and left is Sunitha... the unseparable.. you see them doing everything together..

wushu boy, wong ziyi

the only malay miss iskandarian.... Izan

another 2 sexy...Bangla Vino on the right(fairer n look more bangla) and Suganthini....plus the 2 other sexy.. they re the 4 flowers in our class...hehe

sexy Kalai and Sugan...whoooots

Another chindian,Miss Param,Christine Param..beside her is Jim..urm,but he left us.. We're suspecting him pursuing his motorbike career?mat rempit??hehe

Emo Nishantan

Raeka(chindian) and Kabilan(penyu)..they will have a future together..therefore,we,iskandarian,declare them,husband and wife of 6R Iskandar!!

Sexology aka Demon Lau with his thumbs up...behind is his evil twins aka angel Phoon

He name himself angel Phoon but he loves to annoys the hell out of you=p

My classmates:

2009-08-21T23:17:00.002+08:00

It was very happy these few weeks. It was supposed to be damn happy these few weeks.

Everything was fun at school to start with. Nice teachers and classmates.

BUT today was a nightmare!!! Before school ends,everything was beautiful.

BUT nightmare begun when some idiot did some idiotic stuff.

2009-08-19T23:54:00.001+08:00

I dislike being anxious.So,don't make me feel so..urghhhh

2009-08-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

sometime,its just wrong timing..that can be forgiven though its sad to say...

what's really sad is that it is actually wrong timing,wrong person and wrong feeling... but they actually think that they re doing the right thing at the right time to the right person... aihh,sedih betul....

2009-08-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

In search for a bowling partner...

2009-08-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

procastinating... oh god, please let me just procastinate a lil' bit more..

2009-08-01T00:26:00.002+08:00

I was about to call someone, when I remembered that I actually had forgotten what's the name of the person I wanted to call. I only remember his surname. But, I am in a hurry too. So, I just picked up the phone and started dialing his house number.

Inner mind: Was planning on how i am going to ask for my friend, Chung to answer the phone..

Urghh, of course I cant just say,
'hello, can i speak to Chung pls?'
THE WHOLE FAMILY IS CHUNG!!!! Which Chung do they suppose to know I am talking bout..
Arghh, I need to come up with something...fastttt

A moment later, my call was answered... Shit.. And I didn't know what the hell happened to me that i blurted out the following sentence:

Me: Urm, hello, errr, can I speak to the Chung which is born in the year of 1991 pls??(@.@)
Inner mind of me: dead, I am so dead..

Chung : Chung that is born in the year of 1991 speaking here.

Relieved. Phewwwwww... heeheeeeeeeee

Me: eh, its me... (before i can finish)
Chung: Oh, I know who you are, Mei Wee right?

The thing is, we were tuition mates for 5 years. That night itself me and two other tuition friends wanted to meet up. It was later that I found out Chung is departing to Perlis the next day. So, just called to ask him join us.

I was actually surprised that he can recognize me eventhough we didn't meet for like bout 10 months??

It must have been the stupid 1991 line I said. I bet none of his friends would ever do idiotic stuff like that.. Geramnyaaaaaaaaaaaa...

And so, the conversation continues... task accomplished..

I just can't believe I said bout the 1991 thing. Its so embarassing!!!!

If any kid is reading this, Pls do not follow.. you'll definitely regret if you do...

2009-08-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

The first Vietnamese word I learnt : no boom=boom,just ngam=ngam

You can never guess what it means unless you're a Vietnamese,then its special case..

It actually meant oral sex...... and I read it on Reader's Digest...

the other side of the view

2009-07-31T22:41:00.002+08:00

What's the taste of coffee?? Is it sweet, bitter or sour? maybe even salty? It all depends on what we taste right?

A normal cup of coffee,is a mixtures of coffee powder,hot water,milk and some sugar. Its a mixture of sweet,bitter and sour.. then, why do people often says its bitter?? do they not add sugar in it? nope, they do.. its just a matter of perspective and mindset, i guess..

When a player loses his match in a game, we say he lose his victory.. Why do we never say he gains a defeat?

Different sides of a story? hmm, I was told about a same incident by two different people at two different times and places and nevertheless, two different outcome.

As usual, I am neutral. I don't take sides, and i don't make judgement. But I do want to find out which is the true one. At the same time, if I do find out, it means that the other one had been telling me LIES!!! Does the phrase " curiosity kills a cat" comes in this kinda situation?? I don't know man.

Urm, somehow, its not really important and why make life miserable where it can simply be happy? Aih, don't bother la.. I am neutral.....as usual=)

weekend

2009-07-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

It was rather a busy but enjoyable weekend=)

Watched public enemies during sat night with king. Johnny Depp is so damn hot and sexy.. plain gorgeous<3. The whole thing was nice.

Sunday was family day the whole day. A lil bit tired. Went out for groceries and stuff. Got works waiting at home pula. Anyhow,i consider this as healthy lifestyle.

Is blogging now coz am taking a break from everything..

2009-07-24T01:07:00.005+08:00

And this lil' cutie is what's inside...simply adorable...

A present from Aunt Angela... I miss you so much^^xoxo
a lil's smth which is enough to make me smile=)

2009-07-24T00:52:00.005+08:00

Christmas! christmas!

aiyo,technical problem. This picture shouldnt be here.But since i click on the wrong thing,and my skill now is still limited,hence, lets just leave this beautiful hydrangea here..it looks nice anyhow=p

HO!HO!HO! Its christmast!!!

2009-07-24T00:30:00.008+08:00

Yes, we are very well disciplined!! who let the dog out~~~~

call me "innocence" cause i am WHITE too!! And so,together they make a team called " pure and innocence" team....=.=

Call me "pure" cause I am WHITE!!!

Its the two of us again!!!

Mother and the child,(joey)=)

koala>>> the weather is just nice for me to hibernate..

car and me

Speaking of antiques...here's another one

2009-07-23T23:49:00.005+08:00

Whoa,another one... An old antique bakery which sells delicious pastry...

Another one!!! My saliva is dripping out the moment i saw it!! They re so cute and so sweeeeeeeeeeeet^^

The famous "BRA" collection! Guess where i found this?? ANS: The museum at Melbourne!! Are you tempted to wear it?? haha, its actually an event by the breast cancer foundation there...

Take a look at this!!! Favourite barbacue during the trip tp australia... Yummy!!

take it easy...

2009-07-23T23:26:00.004+08:00

TEST!!! was coming soon! And right now, its already over!! Uhm, i can say for sure, I wasn't even prepared for it.. lol... After 8 months of no test no exam life, I kinda forget the hang of it.. When i first got my test schedule, I didn't even feel nervous, in fact i don't really feel anything at all!!!hahaha.... Well, lets just put it like this, its the first test ever since i came into f6,so, lets just don't be so stress about it.. aka, lets take it easy la~~~~ngek ngek...

Planning to go mountain hiking this sunday with Jo. Initially there's actually 3 options:
(a) Bukit kepayang- 45 minutes for one way
(b) rembau - think it will take quite some time
(c) ulu bendul - 3 hours up and 2 hours down

Since i am just a beginner , i chose the 1st option!! After that only I ll go challenge the other two mountain.... Of course my aim is to hike gunung everast maybe one year later??? or two???

multiple emotions in a day...complexity

2009-06-26T19:43:00.003+08:00

As usual,I woke up with the greatest strength I have. Moving slowly to the washroom to meet Dr.Darlie. I was even more tired than usual. Maybe it was because I am not used to staying up late yet. However, I always believe human being have high ability of adaption.

It was two days ago that I felt so bored and restless. I wanted someone to talk to,to have fun with. My life is so damn it serious nowadays and I kinda not know what the hell is going on anymore. Its not like I like my high school life,but its the people whom I miss. I never know I have got such ability to MISS stuff,until today. This is way way over what I had experienced before.

Two nights before:

It was wednesday night, the day was so hectic. I had to stay in school till 4.30 pm. Note its 4.30 pm in school.

Reason: Because of the damn stupid koko day,so, our so-called clusters school have to lock us up in the damn school till this late. Did I mention how did they lock us up? Well,its actually nothing much except that they LOCKED THE DAMN GATE. Urghhhhh...

Just for the sake of joining and to get some points, my friends and I chose Ninjitsu club(btw, I dont even know the spelling of the club.It sounds right though). This club is so special. First day of meeting already AGM and I ve already got a post...how miracle.

That's not the worst part of the day. After I was freed from the 4.30 jail, I have to head straight to tuition till 7.00 pm. Miracles do happen again and again. I didn't fall asleep during tuition.. And that itself might be the biggest miracle of the year.

I went home all worn out,looking like an old hag..jeez.. After bathing and stuff, i sat in front of my working table staring at the ceiling. And I saw an imaginary angel. She was chubby and with fluffy wings. How cute and most of all, she was telling me to go to bed as I was so tired. How considerate.... But somewhere in my room,I sense a pair of eye staring at me. And that familiar pair of eyes if definitely someone whom I see everyday except weekends.

This pair of eyes belong to a man. He's intelligent and around 5" tall. He's a Chinese and has got a steady job and family. On top of all, he's my Maths T sir. Well, he's indeed very experienced and I too for now is grateful to have him as my Maths T teacher.

With a sudden kind of urge, I began taking out my maths' handouts,and thus the journey to hell begun. It was too boring that I went online a moment later. Logged in to my msn account without much expectation. Once again,surprises do happens. My two best-ies came to rescue the boring night of mine. We met in a chat room. Its been ages since the last time the three of us talk together. Its lame to say, but its what describe my feelings now.So, I think it is okay to be lame once a while right.... I MISS THE OLD TIMES WITH YOU GUYS!!!

Damn the TmNets that ruined the nice moment. The connection is obviously off the line. What the hell are those Tmnet ppl doing? Get your ass on work la jor.. Somehow, it was a great time...

And so, the school life of an ordinary girl in an ordinary school continues on lamely..

Friday,26Th of June 2009...
Sensed the presence of unwelcoming aura... Early in the morning, I was told by one of my classmate Effah that Michael Jackson died in his fifties. I am not a big fan of him but one of his song made a great memory for me; Billy Jean.... One of the Greatest Hits in My memory...

That was the first hit of the day. Coming up next was something rather strange. A new friend of mine, Ah Mo, was given scholarship to further her study at AIMST,Kedah. Of course I am happy for her, but at the same time I was shocked by it at the same time. My emotion was disturbed.

When my two best-ies and I go on separate each to fulfil our own dreams, this feeling didn't occur to me. At that time, I was deeply confused. At the end, I figured out that, I wasn't feeling sad or anything because, we all knew we'll keep in touch and ll always be there for one another no matter where we are and who we will be. There's trust and faith in this friendship that we built together. Irreplaceable....unforgettable.. and thus i hope it will be ever lasting.

This time was different. There's too much regrets with this new friend. I haven't got the chance to know her better. Too much regret... and that's something unforgivable.. I has got a feeling that we'll not keep in touch with one another. Somehow, this thought made me uneasy,unhappy.. And this is what life made of...regrets and hopes.. Regret that I've not taken up enough effort to appreciate this friend that fate brought to me.. Hopes that usher me to look forward another beautiful day with another different events of my life... hopes that made me believe in that this is not the end.. there'll be another miracle...

The third disaster of the day. Sudden spot check in school. Our whole class panicked. Why do they have to choose this particularly sad and emo and everything F***ED up time to spot check?Nervous. I need to act cool i need to act cool, that's what i was trying to convince myself. Everyone was scared I assume. There's student who admitted their crime because they were threaten by the prefects that if they don't admit at the spot, when it is found that they are of guilty, the penalty will be more serious. When I heard them saying that, I doubted for a moment on whether to admit my harmless crime or not. No, is the final answer. I have to bet my luck on this. Hoping that God will help me. I observed the prefects searching each student's bag. They were not strict and the movement was kinda slow compare to my former school. NGEK NGEK... However, my heart never feels steadier. It was thumping kinda faster than the average speed.

Ah Mo came to ask about my condition. She acted fast by putting her phone under the teacher's desk. The prefects will never suspect that place. Brilliant move. I told her that I hide my phone under the desk. Then, we were all waiting to see the final result. One of my friend, bee lee, confessed her crime. She is just to innocent. Tick tock tick tock........... It was ending.... RELIEVED!!! The prefects miss my place. They didn't even notice that they never check my bag. Phew! leganya...

Thankful... I felt so thankful to God and to everyone. I felt anxiety and happiness and joy. For a moment I was over the moon till reality strikes back. It hit me that the day will be the last day Ah Mo in school. The day was the last day Michael jackson is in the world. It all felt so sudden. Regrets.....

It didnt end here. As I was talking to a new friend, she suddenly told me a secret. A secret that I can never exposed it out to anyone. If I do so, I'll never be able to forgive myself and I'll live in guilt forever. However, it is so unbelievable and shocking. The day had begin with a shocking news and "surprises" just don't end.

Conflict. I had to stay back after school to prepare for the Lower 6 performance which will be held on the 1st of July, which is the coming Wednesday. our class, 6R Iskandar, will be performing a dance. After the practice, I'll have to go straight to chemistry tuition till 4.30. At first, I was supposed to join a new maths T tuition but because of some conflict, I wasn't able to get to there. At that time, I was so frustrated. Not that I like tuition very much, but it was just plain frustrating that everything went hair wire in a day.

TBC......

teacher

2009-03-21T23:42:00.004+08:00

Today, I brought upon my courage and sent a text to my teacher. If there wasn't her, I will not be who I am today. I had always feels gratitude towards her. Telling her something that might disappoint her tooks up a great amount of courage I had in myself. I prepared the message the night before. Until the moment I pressed on the "send" key, I was so tension. I felt relieved right after the message was sent. I am indeed glad that I was able to tell her the one big humiliation in my life.

She replied with something I never thought she will say. I am really comforted by her words. It had given me a great deal of motivation on what I will be doing next. Untill the day my life ends, she will always be in my thoughts....

2009-02-02T01:25:00.002+08:00

City of Sydney.Its actually kinda a place where you go shopping.

Time to chioaz. More to come.

Ahem: Joke of the day(its not from me originally,its somewhere I read from)

Imagine if someone keeps trying to lecture you by saying "I told you so........."

YOU should be able to say this back...........

DO you know I TOLD YOU SO has a brother??????

ANS: He is called SHUT THE HELL UP.

Get it or not.. I find it is pretty funny though..hahaha.. Good night!

2009-02-02T01:22:00.002+08:00

A very old english style building which is a catholic church in the center of the city.

Sydney and me!

2009-02-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

Take 2:
3 days later, we went to Sydney from Queensland by plane. I was so into the old buildings there. They really do have very old english style in it. We didn'ts stay there for long,just about 4 to 5 days. Yet, it was a very memorable moment.

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!

2009-02-02T01:07:00.002+08:00

A very happy and memorable holiday in australia as my very private end of high school graduation trip.HAHA.Hmmmm...lets just pen down some of the memory over there,so that my I don't forget anything about it in future.. Who knows maybe I can get Alzehmeir..

Take 1:

I first landed on Queensland,where my Aunt Carol and Uncle Geoffrey stays.The picture above is of course non other than me, Aunt Carol and Uncle Geoff.

Curious

2008-12-04T22:51:00.004+08:00

scoliosis a common disease among the teenagers' population.Maybe to be more precise it is two percent of all women, and one half of a percent of all men have scoliosis. Most common scoliosis in teenager is Adolescent Idiopathic Scoliosis (AIS).

Scoliosis is a medical condition in which a person's spine is curved from side to side, and may also be rotated. It is an abnormal lateral curvature of the spine. On an x-ray, the spine of an individual with a typical scoliosis may look more like an "S" or a "C" than a straight line. In most cases, scoliosis is a genetic inheritence disease based on the Mendelian Inheritance but with imcomplete penetrance. It is often rare that this scoliosis is not from genetic inheritance. Hence, scoliosis is also known as idiopathic which in forth means that unknown or in latin it is; we are idiot, we don't know what it means. Scientist had been doing research for about ten years yet there is no cure for scoliosis unless surgery which will only be performed when one has a very severe scoliosis till it affects one's daily life.

4th of December 2008, a new member is added to scoliosis group and that is me. I never knew it would happen to me till today it is proven so. I am thankful to God that it is just a mild case for me. I don't know whether will it worsen in the future but I have faith that it will not. Right now at this very moment,I am not afraid. This is not the time to worry about this as great things are awaiting for me, I suppose.

Today, I had an urge that drive me wanna know more about the reason behind almost everything. I would like to spent time seeking reasons behind unsolved mysteries or unknown questions. My curiosity just grown tremendously within myself.

P/S Above is not my X-ray photo.

2008-12-01T13:29:00.002+08:00

SPM finally ended.. Yet, the last day was the worst ever...
Accounts, is just shit shit and shit... I only realized that it is Prinsip Perakaunan today when i fill the particulars in my exam papers itself.. This paper really made felt like an idiot (>.<)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2008-11-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

Its 12 am now. 8 more hours to go,I will be sitting for my english paper, it's SPM day 2. I am wondering what am I doing here blogging. I should've tons of sejarah facts to memorize as tomorrow noon I 'll be sitting for sejarah paper 2( the patience testing paper)

I can't help but to write out these words now:

Often people wonder what are friends. Now, when someone ask you what are friends, you ll just need to tell them: Friends are someone that is Fun yet Realistic, Irritating at times yet Exciting, they know when to say "NO" to you when something is to bring negative effect on you, they are sometimes Disappointing but when they do they right thing at the right time, they can really make you Smile!!!

Maybe its just me or what, I find the above quatation really incredible. By the way, there are more elaboration that I will soon write it here..hehe..I found this when I was doing english revision.. It is just tremendous..

time to sleep and study.. good night.. amen

Adios!

2008-11-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

Last Tuesday was my form 5 farewell celebration. It was a 3 in 1 ceremony. The cocuricular day, Pn. Chua's retirement day, she was once my ex-geography teacher when i was in form 3, and last but not least, my very one and only form 5 farewell ceremony.
It wasn't that sentimental for me though. This signifies the ending of my high school life as a student. There's a friend of mine who thinks that, graduating from form 5 indicates the end of friendship and all. I don't quite agree though. True friendship are meant to be eternal. This is what I agree with.
I can still remember last year's form 5 farewell ceremony. I see people crying, hugging and smiling. And that was the same thing that happened this time. The faces I will never forget. The memories that I will always remember. Those are the part of the puzzles in my life. Collecting it pieces by pieces and in the end of the day, it will be a complete set of puzzle of mine.
The ceremony ended with the " SALAM" thingie with the teachers. The teachers gave us the best wishes they could. They cried for us and they gave us warm hugs.

radioactive

2008-11-07T21:52:00.002+08:00

Went to consult a doctor regarding my backbone pain last week. The doctor wanted me to take x-ray. I remember the time when I was small,4 years old, I once took one x-ray in australia. In my memory, the machine was huge and scary. Its mobile. When I lied down on the steel made table, I was really frightened. I even ran away from the table crying to get my auntie who was wtih me that time.
Again, I took the x-ray last week. Its either the technologies are really advancing or I am really growing up. I felt that the machine was mush more smaller and it is not frightening anymore. LOLX, now then, which is which?

2008-10-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

Had been studying for SPM.. I feel so down suddenly.. haiz, what the hell is going on to me.. I can't even belive that I am here blogging bout such stupidity of mine.. how i wish there's jokes for me to listen, funny incidents to be seen and I just hope that I can laugh like hell now... This is highly impossible..

2008-08-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH!!! The final is finally here.. THE BATTLE BETWEEN LEE CHONG WEI AND LIN DAN IN OLYMPIC..

Today I attended a seminar for BM in USIM, Nilai. The 1st section can be consider good, as the techniques that man thought to write essay was interesting and strategic. BUT, the 2nd and 3rd section of the seminar was like damn freaking boring. And they charged me 98$. Gosh, I feel like being cheated. I could've done something else more fun and productive with that ten hours seminar. Not forgetting that my gastric attacked around 8 o'clock, which means i actually endured 11 hours of my gasrtic pain. It is eventually because I forget to bring along my medicine as it had been quite sometime for the last BIG ATTACKED i experienced.

Sad ending of my day as Lee Chong Wei lose to Lin Dan. Salute both of them. LCW had tried his best and Lin is really flawless.
My feeling now is like 'putus cinta' though i never experienced it XD

2008-08-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

WHO PART II

I stunted for a second. A chill was felt behind me. Only one person from the entire of Beverly High carries this aura, Miss. Mont, our principal. “Why are you standing here like a Liberty statue?” This sentence didn’t come out from a normal volume, in fact, it was at high frequency. Even, Lindsay, our school watch cat, get freaked off, whenever it hears Miss. Mont talking at a distance of 500 meters. “Sorry Miss.Mont, I ‘m was,” I paused for a while. She wouldn’t believe if I were to tell the truth as Mr.Parkinson is nowhere to be seen. Well, in this realistic world, we, humans, often need to choose between ‘Honesty is the Best Policy’ or ‘White lies Guarantee your Life.’ In this case, I’ll choose the second option. And so, I replied,’ I witnessed a robbery at the bank nearby and apparently I was late because I lodged a police report. You know, Miss.Mont, as a good citizen, we help out as much as we can.’ OH MAN, I knew it was lame. But at that moment, that’s the best I could think of. Miss.Mont gave me a wicked smile and told me to get my ass into the classroom. Gosh, that was close.

2008-08-16T18:52:00.002+08:00

The second day after the leg and abdomen pain.. SHIT, now my ass pain.. WHAT THE HECK... How could you do this to me.. My ASS hurt so much.. sob sob

YAY and YEEPIE!! lee chong wei had finally won the semifinal match and had officially succesfully made himself to go for the final. More exciting games will be on tomorrow. Wondering whether I will be able to watch it as I am attending a BM( bahasa melayu) course tomorrow.

Knew that someone had officially back to single. OHHHHH, its awfull i guess. Neways, life has to go on, and it will. Good luck la,dear..

Received a line that sound like this ; so close yet so far... hmmm, this is definitely something deep or it is more to confusing. Felt something annoying me but just don't know what it is.. Studies? or Inspiration? Well, I believe I 'll know sooner or later.. ahaha..

I found out that this is the ' have sex and have babies season'!!!!!! I currently found out that my school teachers are getting pregnant one after another. 1st I found out that my school counsellor got pregnant next is my previous BM teacher... It all happens, after I spread the rumours of Mummy J got pregnant!!! ahahahahhaha... Wonder what happens when Mummy J read this..

P/S: the baby's BIOLOGICAL FATHER IS>>>>>>>>>>> W.J.B!!! muahahahahaha( this is no joke)

2008-08-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH, NS( national service) is finally out. Heart throb when i was checking whether I kena or not.. YES!! muahahahahahhaaahahahaahaaahahahahhah=) at last, i didn't get.. yesla tu.. this is my world...

SHIT SHIT SHIT!! have to run 18 rounds around the damn basketball court today for the UBTS. I ran during the beginning of the year and now this is the 2Nd time. I have not been exercising for the past few months. Stamina sure lack off this also if I 've got any.. wakakaka.. It took me 11.04 to finish the whole running thing which is like 1minutes plus later then the previous record. Really slack off much..

After running, my legs immediately show the effects. VEERY VERRRRRRRY SORE!!! Don't have much energy even to walk. Yet, I've got to stay back in school for a History talk on techniques of answering questions. Have to stay till 4.30. Disaster man. Nonetheless, in the end, that talk turn out to be not really productive and so the three of us, me, J and S organized on the spot a history quiz of our own. YAY

President: J
Participants: M and S

After that talk, I thought I was going to head for my English tuition. But eventually due to my teacher is sick, so the tuition was cancelled!I am so glad but it struck my mind when actually, my teacher had been owing me classes and she never replace back. Despite how tired I was, I am actually hoping to go for tuition as trial is REALLY DAMN FREAKING NEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got home,took my bath, online for a while, ate dinner, and went off sleeping.. Now, here I am, blogging bout life lately..

WHO (part I)last part...

2008-08-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

Then, I ran over him and handed him my Biology assignment on the topic ‘Humans lust for love.’ I didn’t choose this topic on purpose. It was him, who made me do this. This is the hardest assignment I have ever done. Firstly, as a fifth grader biology student, I had only dissected around 50 kinds of amphibians, reptiles and insects. I had never dissected any homosapiens. So, I prefer doing ‘Animals lust for love’ instead of what I was given. Secondly, lust and love both have a very diverge meaning. It covers such a wide range that you can’t even finish doing research on it even if you are given 1001 nights. Gosh, is he deaf? I kept on calling like a mad “Mr.Parkinson, Mr.Parkinson,” and he is like “Don’t chase me, I am in a hurry to the toilet.’ And I am sure he wasn’t heading to the washroom.

At last, I caught up with him.

I said,’ Good day, Sir?’ Mr.Parkinson replied,’ Oh, you are, ummm, you are.’ After 45 seconds, (record breaking, it is the shortest time ever for him to take to remember who I am.) He continued,’ Oh yes, you are Miss Kim, Kimberly Wainwright. So, what can I do to help you, young lady?’ I replied,’ Call me Kim, Sir. Here, this is my assignment.’ He stared at my with his big eye balls. I wonder if I had done anything wrong. The atmosphere was a total silent. He took the 2 inch thick file, flipped through it and gave me a wink. And, he went off without saying a second word.

WHO( part I)

2008-08-09T12:32:00.000+08:00

Oh, there he is, Mr. Parkinson. Weird name huh? Definitely. Basically, Mr. Parkinson is my Biology teacher. I had been under him for like 5 years ever since I entered Beverly High. He is my favorite teacher under certain reasons.

Mr. Parkinson:

Age: 50

Physical appearance: Round glasses, hunched back, you can see his BIG EYE BAllS even though there behind the round lenses, pale looking, long silver hair which is tied up messily, he is actually tall about 6 feet tall excluding his hunched back, skinny and nice teeth.

Special or Weird characteristic: He actually loves staring people who walk pass him with his big eyes without any reason. Besides that, he always sits at the school’s botanical garden talking to those ants that he sees. In Beverly High, no one really knows about him. Not even the principal, Miss Montana, shortly Miss Mont. The only thing we know is, he was a professor in Oxford University. And why would Mr. Parkinson quit the high paid and honorable job in Oxford and come to Beverly High? There’s sure some secret behind it.

Why do I like him so much? Mr. Parkinson is exactly like his name when it comes to stuff other than Biology. He will not remember who are those who didn’t hand in his works or those who prank him in classroom.

2008-08-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

This is an image I found after writing the story below.. hmmm,this is the "Moonland' where Shiyouka and Nathan last meet......

This is a story I wrote for the school'd mag..mayb its lame

2008-08-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

Spring that lives forever

Winter ends,
Announcing the arrival of spring,
Coldness is gone,
Allowing warmth to come,
Flowers bloom newly from its seedlings,
New life’s born but mine’s ending.

There are always come and go in this very world we are living in. Some people say, the new wouldn’t come if the old don’t go. It’s the season of spring now. It is such a warm feeling to feel the heat from the sun. The soothing warmth breeze that calm down my mind.

It is 8 o’clock in the morning now in Nagasaki, Japan. Knock, knock. “Shiyou, breakfast is ready.”There goes Maria, my personal nurse, who had been taking care of me ever since the death of my parents. My parents died in a flight accident when they were heading to the United States to find a pair of healing hands for me. They died when I was only 15 years old.

I am Shiyouka Haninozuka. I was named after the flower, Hydrangea, which blooms during this temperate season of spring. I pretty much represent the flower as my mood changes every now and then. Hydrangea changes its colour from white to blue, red, pink or purple according to the acidity of the soil. It is exactly similar with the swinging mood of mine.

I am now, standing by the window sill, looking out of it, and right towards the ‘ Moonland”, the place where only yellow dandelions are grown, which is situated 6 kilometers away from this four-walled room. The breeze made the small tiny little dandelions’ to sway with the direction of it. My ears, listening to the music of spring, sang by the wind-bell that hung by the window side. This is the promised spring of mine. Does he remember our promise?

He left Nagasaki for Toronto the last spring. But, we made a promised that we will meet again the next spring, that is, now. Nathan is my childhood friend. We are bonded with a strong force. We helped each other, completes the unfinished words of one another, we are like two bodies that share the same soul. We are incomplete without one another and so, we are meant to be together.

The sound of the wind-bell assured me that the next morning had arrived. I opened my eyes but I thought I was still in the dream. It was Nathan who appears before me. At that instant I could barely believe in my very own eyes. Those eyes that gives me the reflection of him. I was not dreaming. He did came back to fulfill our promise.

Reuniting with someone who had been far away from you during the spring brings you more warmth than ever.

Last spring, we promised that we will meet up again. And now, here we are again, together. Nathan said he would like to bring me out from the cardiac therapy centre. The doctor gave him permission and we went to the Spring Festival. It had been 2 years ever since the last time I step my foot out of the therapy centre’s ground. The last time I went out was to attend my parents’ funeral procession. The festival was flooded by the people of Nagasaki. The whole street was decorated with colourful flowers and all sorts’ kind of stall was set up. Looking afar from the festive street, I saw the ”Moonland.” I had always wished to go there. It had been two months since Nathan stayed in Nagasaki. Spring is reaching its’ end.

Fate showed its’ cruelty to me. In the midst of a night, my chest pained as if a huge stone was bumping on it and my breathe shortens every seconds passed by. And finally I lost my consciousness. I woke up and found myself admitted to the Nagasaki hospital. I was told that my heart functions poorly as the aortic regurgitation worsen. That evening itself, Nathan secretly took me out to the “Moonland” that I had always been watching from afar. He knew I wanted to come here even though I didn’t even mention a word about it.

No heart beats were felt. The world turns black. I collapsed and fell onto the dandelions’. Nathan screamed aloud my name, Shiyouka. Is that the last word I can hear?

One month later, I found myself, conscious, on the bed in the hospital again. My heart beats strongly yet I felt sorrow deep within it. As if my heart was bleeding, tearing apart. I was told that a donor appeared. And that had saved my life.

Spring ended, and it is now summer. Yet, Nathan is nowhere to be seen, not even his shadow. Soon, I felt something strange. I had an uneasy feeling about Nathan. Yet, I waited for him patiently. Summer ended and it is now the season of autumn. Autumn is the saddest season I have ever had. It revealed me the truth behind my survival, the disappearance of Nathan. “Shiyouka” wasn’t the last word I heard; instead, it was Nathan’s last word. He got hit by a car when he was carrying me back to the hospital at the time when I collapsed on the dandelions’. He died as he tried to protect me from getting knocked down by the car. Not only that, he gave me, a life that I merely lost.

The ever warmth is spring,
And that’s where we met,
The awaits lies on summer,
Where he is nowhere to be seen,
The ever sad is autumn,
As this is when he left me, forever,
The longing visits winter,
Where I spent the nights’ longing for his return,
Here comes the spring, again,
And how should I be now…….

I understand that, the death shall never return and the alive shall move on. As the time will never stop instead it continues on running at its own pace. Here I am, standing in the middle of the “Moonland,” together with him.

2008-08-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

I think it had been quite some time that i didn't blog about my daily. haha... hmmm,well, perhaps, I just prefer to be a lazy bump.kaka

Ahem, thinking back the week I had before,it was actually quite hectic since I am ageing day by day.. LOL..

Last saturday, I went to Catholic Highschool in PJ to attend the National BK(bible knowledge) Quiz. Gorilla's car was totally a disaster. I had to seat between David and JG and that has made me not been able to sleep well in the car. My head was just like a fishing rod,my gosh. We got second in state but it is not smth great coz we didnt get into the finals. There people all over from Selangor till Sarawak. The spirits of them should be highly respected. Salute!!!Gorilla brought us to a chicken rice shop, cant believe that I am eating with her..Well, that concludes that the world is small after all.. haha

And that was a week ago.

Now, everything is really over I guess. Umm, days had been like : go school, study, homeworks, gossip, eat, sleep, watch movies etc etc.

Ohya, last Sunday, i went for a movie with J and S. X-files coz Mummy was out of seats. The one and a half hour was like Days and Nights for me. I was still tired over the journey to PJ and after the night talk with my sister. And that movie really is challenging my patience and endurance. It was like a spell to make you to fall asleep. Gosh, thanks to the popcorn S bought that keeps me awake.

Yesterday, I tend to skip school coz couldn't wake up. Real tired + sleep debt, and since it is Wednesday, so, I just did it.ahaha
And now I regretted coz we have to run 18 rounds for the PJ sessions. Lucky me that J hasn't run yet, so, we have got companions. S text me after school asking why didn't i go.. haha, she was so mean.. lol..jkjk

To conclude:
Actually, I was planning to blog bout dailys' like once in two weeks or a week. But, I ll post up the continuation of my newly craps stories here,in my blog. Just like the previous ones,ya, that "WHO,part I"

2008-08-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

WHO (Part I)

Heart beat: to the extreme speed
Reason: overslept
Reason: slept late
Biting a slice of plain ordinary English bread in my mouth, I ran at the speed of lightning towards the bus stop. It had been a month since I first transfer into Beverly High, a private school where the rich and mighty goes. Am I one of them? Well, this is quite a complicated question. If you were to say that “oh yes, I am one of them,’ people tend to say you are a booster, boasting around yourself. Yet, if you were to say ‘no, I am not one of them, my family is just ordinary,’ there goes rumors’ saying that you area faker. So then, which is which?

If I were to be the rich and mighty, why am I catching a bus right now? I could’ve just call a driver and drive me to school. Aha, another question marks. Sharp 8 o’clock, I reached the school gate. Lucky I was not late. In this superior school, you can simply see hundreds of Mercedes Benz, BMWs’, Porsches’, Aston Martins’ and many more expensive cars going around the school compound.

2008-08-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

I had been blogging for quite some time. Now that I finally cleared up the trash in this blog, I would like to begin a new journey in this life long process. Many of them thinks that writing a blog and letting others to know bout you is totally a crap. ahaha, I do feel so sometimes. Yet, for me, a blog isn't and will not be a diary, nor a confession chamber!! It is a hobby? Shall we say that??

Do I have the flair for writings?I am definitelyt not qualified for a good writer. Even so, I always get excited in writing means. Everytime, I would try out something new, something that differs from those I wrote before.

The conversation with my sis was good and I am not going to deny that, definitely not. I will not be blogging so often as i used to. And I will try out new ways of blogging, something fresh and ...

2008-08-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

The meaning of sign CAPRICORN
Tenth sign of the zodiac
Your element: EarthYour ruling planet: Saturn
Tarot card corresponding to your sign: The DevilY
our lucky color: OrangeYour stone: Amber

From your natural element Earth you draw a certain taste for stability, which is a strong characteristic of your personality. Your personal Earth is an Earth that is still in preparation, an Earth that must defeat the obstacles of ice and cold. From Saturn, your ruling planet, you have quickly understood that you can't live more than one life at a time and that choices are necessary.You know the importance of stability and fidelity. You are a person of commitment. When you commit yourself, it is completely, with all your soul. You know how to be faithful when it's worth it.You also have the will to follow the path to which you have committed. You are capable of a great deal of devotion. You can give a lot to others. Your sensitivity is deep even though modesty occasionally tempts you to hide it.You have a temperament which can be described as introverted and secret, and even if you know how to let yourself go you often show much less than you actually feel. Sexuality has great symbolic value for you and is often a deep commitment rather than a passing fancy. You find absolute fulfillment in a complete and stable union as your entire character is made in this image: complete and stable. And all your qualities occasionally make you suffer when others don't respond to your attempts.You cannot abide falseness or the breaking of commitments, and you can suffer from them. In these situations you can let yourself go and, since you rely a great deal on yourself and don't like to make a public display of your feelings, this can create tensions which freeze you up. You are very sensitive and occasionally fragile. If everything is going well you believe that it will last, but if things are going badly you feel your world is coming apart. You fall from a great height, and no longer know what to do.Your relations to the other signs:You can get along with Capricorns, even though they don't always attract you. In fact you have a tendency to occasionally go towards those who can be the most difficult for you, particularly Geminis or Scorpios.You have qualities in common with Virgo, but there is also risk of tension. Tauruses can be very beneficial for you, if you know how to deal with them.This short, unassuming analysis can help you to better conduct your existence. To learn to know yourself better allows you to maximize your strengths and minimize your weaknesses.The people who succeed in life are often those who know consciously or unconsciously to how make the most of their talents, their advantages, and their strengths, while understanding how to maintain control over their weaknesses.

2008-07-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

Now is 0030, towards the ending of my piece. I don't know how it will turn out to be as i just crap something out.

Stayed back in school today for tuition purpose. Talked to Edward while waiting for my car. PURE?? Ahahaha, I could never imagine that will come out from his mouth to me. Does that symbolizes pure?? I wonder (==)

2008-07-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

The cracking of the brain began 8.00 pm yesterday night. I needed inspiration badly. Yet, i can only barely even have a little bit of it.
1030: The coconut head here is still struggling. I know it is not my limit yet. I can go further and better. S came online. Telling me to finish it up fast. I hope too, as I still have many other things to be done.
1130: S came again. She is finishing. I am still moving at the speed of the tortoise.
0100: S went to bed. It is now me alone.
0130: New inspiration might come with a fresher brain. Knocked off then.

It is now, Tuesday,0927 pm. I started working on the article right after add maths tuition. OMG, I think I just manipulated the whole story. Yet, I am now stucked again. (><)Maybe some peanuts will provide me with inspiration.

2008-07-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

People that are at the lowest point are those whom do wrong things but trying to pretend that they are the innocent ones. Lucky me, that I met those people at this age of mine. In future, or even now, that I meet those low class animals again, I 'll know exactly what to do. Show 'em who's the boss!!! ahahahahaahah

This post is just a post to release some anger towards those idiots. Do not get too into it, if you, those who reads my blog isn't someone mentioned above. Those who feel it, yes, you are the one.

AHAHAHAHAHA( evil laughter)